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BLACKLIST ME

Honoring the Poetics of Native Music

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As Native peoples, music permeates our lives in various and diverse ways. It may manifest in traditional songs, soundtracks to personal histories, memory, acts of love, resistance, poetics. In “BLACKLIST ME” (Academy of American Poets), which this exhibition draws its title from, poet Kinsale Drake (Diné) writes about destroying and re-centering the canon, penning love poems to Native rock icon Buffy Sainte-Marie, and working against erasure through mechanisms of joy and community. 

As Indigenous writers working against and within what constitutes the so-called “American” canon, how can our words lift up, celebrate, re-center, or pay homage to genealogies of Native music, whatever that may mean for us? How can they locate intersecting violence between settler colonialism and acts of erasure within the literary, musical, and broader worlds? Or, how can they exist joyously or tremendously on their own, as part of what has always come before?

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BLACKLIST ME

Kinsale Drake (Diné)

none of my ancestors are on the radio

none of my ancestors are

but my sister refurbished

an 8-track and I want buffy in her

purest form: NDNs huddled in a basement

somewhere, listening to bootlegged

tapes, except the basement’s

not a basement. it’s a truck bed—

(someone’s uncle’s GMC) wheedling

over a lip of river cuz

the best thing about rock n roll is

you don’t have to do anything right

to survive. you don’t even have

to make sense to a white english

professor who wants chronology

when I want buffy and a truck careening

into the horizon. I want the explosion

as grand as cicadas amping

out the sound of night as the 8-track

rolls and rolls and buffy

lives forever instead of on

some balding president’s blacklist,

and through the smoke I almost want

to mistake a splinter of moonlight

for her yellow dress, all the NDNs

dusting themselves off

and laughing at the smolder,

the little wheel spin and spin

the little wheel spin

 
 
 
 
“Stop”

Ailani
(Santa Clara Pueblo, NM / Diné (Navajo Nation))
 
 
 
Untitled

Sareya Taylor
(White Mountain Apache)


my hands are filled with sunflower seeds
fruit at my feet
sitting in an abalone shell waiting

bluebird brought our teachings
bluebird brought our songs
bluebird performed my ceremony
bluebird brought the rain

when you passed things were hard
i couldn’t remember my introduction
my throat was full of tádídíín
my hands were cut open

i asked my creator what do we do
tádídíín muffling my voice
i asked them for a sign

bluebird brought our teachings
bluebird brought our songs
bluebird performed my ceremony
bluebird brought the rain

the cottonwood sees me waiting for you and he uses his branches to braid my hair
placing small cotton buds into my hair
knotting the end with a small leaf

dló’ dotł’izh come tell me a teaching

dló’ dotł’izh come sing me a song

dló’ dotł’izh come help me with ceremony

dló’ dotł’izh dló’ dotł’izh dló’ dotł’izh dló’ dotł’izh
 
 
 
 

After War

Meek Watchman
(Diné)

 
 
 
 
Three girls from North Country

Amber McCrary
(Diné)

after Bob Dylan's Girl from North Country

If you're travelin to North Country dread
Where the winds hit heavy on the Red

I wonder if they remember me at all
Many times, I've often thought

In the dawn of my morning
In the sleepy sun of my evening eye

It all becomes clichéd memoir
and scribbled journal entries

A doused liver dances in midnight mixes
Eyes swell
Into a sweaty toe of a hindrance

Glory, guts, and punk
three Diné girls
kissing the anti-american dream

A red dodge neon
cigarette hot box
gallop towards malt drenched alleyways

A CD lasers Nekoromantix’s “Subcultural Girl”
I hear a full heart yell WHERE HAVE YOU GOOOOONE?!

into Mother Mountain’s lighting ear
she hears our spirits
in this back-country sky


Our torpid spirits teether bottle caps
& laugh into violent liquid

Death is at every corner
but we don't know it
so, we listen to music about it

Punk, psychobilly, rockbilly
One would say it's the
seafood of music
for navajos, yeeyah!

but little did we know
when we weren't taught that way
many would say, so we astray

Silent woes
hide in the sands of internal suffocation
Gives way to choked seeds

How silly to be an age of any kind

Mind mumps
Viral thoughts of the minds past

If you're travelin to North Country dread
Where the winds hit heavy on the Red

If you go when the snowflakes fall
When the sky deepens, and the snow is tall
Please see for me, they are wearing a coat so warm
To keep them from the deathly wind

I wonder if they remember me at all
Many times, I've often thought

Remember me
for they were once true loves of mine
 
 
 
 
“Gatlohiha”

Agalisiga Mackey
(Cherokee Nation)
 
 
 
First Song

Lily Painter
(Kiowa/Winnebago)


Wa-Ho,Wa-Ho, Oh Oh Oh
She could sing,
ancestral to my ears or maybe
it hurts all the same
pictograph on stone,
jagged flames,
warm wind on my face
Oh, oh, oh.
from sky to earth,
it might have been soft rain—
pendleton blanket hanging over the window
blowing, flowing, like long hanging locks
down her back.
Wa-Ho, Wa-Ho
The soft rhythm of her breathing.
Chest rising and falling like small waves over redstone shores, thump of a thunderheart,
worker bees in cottonwood or birchbark or neither
Oh oh oh.
baby eyes flutter, long lashes the color of the rock beneath the world Are you safe in my arms?
Ah khaw-khaw gyah bone daw
It is all you need, the smell of a season’s first storm. The First song.
Ahle ah thaw mah.
Sing it one more time.
Wa-Ho Oh Oh Oh.
 
 
 

Untitled

2022

Jessica Begay 
(Diné)

 
 
 
Rez Band

Summer Paa'ila-Herrera Jones
(Disenrolled Pechanga)


Crowded shed made for band practice,
Though we never knew how to play a single instrument,
Somehow convinced that there was music in us.

So, we sang.
We orchestrated revolutionary sound, with loose string guitars and spontaneous drum-sets. We laughed till we cried- thinking about how we would be heard.

Mostly we sounded like shit.
But, the mind lets go of terrible tunes, for the infinite loop of bliss.

Our rez band didn’t survive the heat of that summer.
Band practice turned into cuzzinz sleepovers,
And we never forgot the rhythm of a good story.
 
 
 
 

Damn, She the One

Kimberly Robertson
(Mvskoke)

 
 
“Kill the Man, Save the Indian”

Merciless Indian Savages
(Diné, Unangax̂, Hopi & Akimel Oʼodham)
 
 
 
 

Boy

Charitie Ropati
(Yup’ik & Samoan)

 
 
 
A Warehouse, A Cave Remembering

Coyote Park
(Yurok/Karuk)


On language revitalization, music in night-spaces, its traces back to land
A cave remembers the echo of voice speaking
meykwele’we’y (i cry, i weep)
Like the water dripping
Slowly down
Its body
A cave wants to remember holding you as you cry
Where your tears, can follow its hum on cold rocks
The ashy rocks, as grey as hair before its fall
Carry the tears
It turns to synth
Falls down the metallic edge
Of a dancehall

Your ribs vibrating against mine,
hand behind back
We move like our bones never forgot language
Like our bones never forgot the beat
Of a mouth
Moving in a motion
That it no longer moves
But still moves
In the pressure between our heels, palms of feet,
And concrete

A cove remembers the tremble of a mouth sounding
Soo’oo
It remembers spirit on the abalone shell
The abalone shell itself holds god
The shell hollow, repeats “soo’oo”
like a duet between the skies and the sands
Pebbles for shore, upriver to river mouth
This beach takes a form of a room we once met
Low bass, eardrums full
Spine as chord, as cable, as
Teme’m (buzz)
Tememehlek’ (rattle)
Mouths moving with no words coming out

A kiss on the dancefloor could bring me back to the first
Sound spoken between the cave and the cove
And it moves me the same
 
 
 
 
"Make You Mine"

The Tewa
(ᏣᎳᎩ/ Purépecha/ Chinese)
 
 

Jesse Ed Davis

Solange Aguilar
(Mescalero Apache & Yo’eme)

 
 
 
 
T Smiles

Solange Aguilar
(Mescalero Apache & Yo’eme)

For John Trudell

This home is a mouth
that swallows your name

whole
eats the spirit
renames our children

ember

but today, I think about
a gold field

your black hair

the wind running through it
like my hands did

so long ago
 
 
 
 
“Instaromance”

Rose Jandreau
(Ihaŋktoŋwaŋ [Yankton Sioux])
 
 
 
Ité Šá

2021
Elizabeth Skye
(Oglala/Standing Rock)


Red-faced, they say I’m dangerous
Pale faces can’t save us from angel dust
God's faith replaced peace with hate and lust
Now somehow our visions been escaping us

But don’t let them tell you nothin’
Don’t let them til you sh*t
Don’t let them sell you somethin’
That’ll make you wanna quit

Set fire to the bootstraps
Set fire to the feet
Put your bellies to the dirt and
Always listen to your dreams

They fired on us first
They cut down all the trees
They sabotaged our births and
Sabotaged our seas

How do we return
If we’re traumatized by greed
Let me put it in a verse
For those with ears and eyes to see

I found out all I’m worth is
F*cking everything
So I gotta get the word out
You can hear it when I sing

Letting all the birds out
Release my fears up to the breeze
Cause no matter how much it hurts
It’s so seven generations ahead,
Don’t feel a thing.

 
 
 
 
Un Radio Pierde su Señal

Maria Cisneros
(Indigenous/Chicana)


las flores
de los laureles
parecían algodones

como los que
mi mama
remojaba
en aceite de olivo
y enrollaba con ruda
para mis dolores
de oídos

se escuchaban tantos
cantos distintos
desde la huerta

¡RADIO PARAISO!

un paraíso en el desierto
algunas canciones
salvajes y urgentes

¡DISFRUTALO MIENTRAS PUEDES!

otras
tiernas y brumosas–
un latido de corazón

¡ESTO SI ES VIDA!

los limones
y las naranjas
brillaban como estrellas
en los árboles–
las estrellas de antes
cuando apenas extendía
mis raíces hacia lo más profundo
de La Tierra
del Desierto
que me robo el corazon
cuando apenas era niña

incesante las canciones
a todas horas del dia

¡RADIO PARAISO!
¡CONCURSE Y GANE SU DISCO DE SONRISAS!

y de repente–
estática
y
silencio

ningún movimiento frantico
de antena
de gancho de fierro
regresaba la estación

paraíso perdido
señal perdida

si pudiera perderme
también para siempre
en un sueño
lo haría
 
 
 
Monino

Ariana Vega
(Diné/Mexican)


Monino is a nickname for Ramon
But they didn’t care to call him by either
He was the Mexican with a speech impediment / they told him he was dyslexic
But he just didn’t speak their language

Are time machines possible? I would take the chance
To go back and ask for three to five minutes
I imagine myself walking into that classroom / the smell of chalk and false history books
This is what I would say to them / In the year of 1967

Your words bounce off a shield of protection built from generations before
He loves his language, his culture / he’s Tejano
His brother is in a band / he’s their number one fan
Monino is my father, and I am my father’s daughter

Monino grew up to be a custodian during the week
And on the weekends, he DJ’s
I knew of Little Joe and Cumbia and anything for Selena’s before I could read
Because of him, I don’t know a life without rhythm

As a child I would beg to go to his gigs
Love songs in Spanish hold the power to heal
Cumbias ignite a proudness to be brown / Xicana / Xingona

If they could see my father today, would there be regret in their hearts?
There is forgiveness in ours but forgiveness is not weakness
If we carry generational trauma / Do they carry generational hatred? A
language forbidden to speak is now blasting through the speakers
And I turn the volume up.
 
 
 
 
“Llameda de los Ancestros”

Benjamin Salinas
 
 
 
Dim My Limbs

Jalen Lee
(Diné)


I dim my limbs & lift with Mvskoke
hymns tattooing harmonies on brown skin

of drum

of drummer

a Diné country song
swinging in flea market smoke passing

from lip

to salted lip

undulating to tempos of

oh shí heart

oh ni heart

a mosaic of tongues conducting I will be

there

here

everywhere

unexpectedly & entire—dancing

toward home

toward the sun

language made lyrical made jingling
ululating humming sprouting
with the petaled remembrance of
nálí
kookum
toska
ninzigos
pokni
kisîmis
anaana

remember me

as we sing the silver into our hair
& the craters on my face meet
the constellations on yours
 
 
 
 
“My Man The Devil”

Carolina Hoyos
(Quechua-Kichwa)
 
 

Big Wheel/Little Wheel; Portrait of Buffy Sainte-Marie.

Rya Drake-Hueston
(Diné descended from Paiute and Hopi)

Antique and Vintage Fabric Tapestry, 1800's era mother-of-pearl buttons, graphite on canvas. 2022.

8 ft. x 6.5 ft.

 
 
 
 
Touch Point

Asiyah Herrera
(Aruaco/Kogi [Native Colombian])


“I cannot tell you who you are.”
My ancestors said once.
And that girl I’d been, I’m slowly understanding where she belongs.
“I cannot tell you who you are.” Yet often I try to make mountains out of bones.
Warriors from the pathetic faces of humanity. My ancestors,
Are dead. I do not believe the dead watch over me. But they left me words, stories and songs. Touch points.
I Know who I am, there has never been a day no matter how dark, that I have not known this fact.
Everyday I’m learning that my anchors and touch points cannot be
Other people.
That God and this beautiful earth He manifested are tools.
Through all of my phases broken, bloody and bruised
This is the one where I feel most, whole.
Learning that people can’t keep me here, it’s the ghosts that keep me
Moving. From every corpse I’ve shed I kept a ghost
Because spirits don’t rot. That girl I’d been, is buried somewhere long forgotten,
But her spirit lives inside me everyday. I’m learning to love her like a sister,
To heal her without giving into fear.
I can set sail chase the sun across the sea, and
The sun will say let the moon guide the way.


“Ahora tu cargas el amor el dolor, esperanza y sangre de tus ancestros...
no te pierdas en este mundo a menos que estás en la selva.”


I know we’re at war, but warriors need sleep too, try to see beyond that.
Me Caigo del cielo con la luna, my diaspora stretches farther than the constellations.
Ojos claros, y no reso con ningún santo, solo dios del mundos y ceilos.
Confident not a God-complex.
And I feel every breath like it’s lasted a lifetime.
“I cannot tell you who you are.” But I no longer need them to,
When I see the sky, stars and put mis Manos en la terria, I know who I am.
When I see my reflection en la agua pura I see my ghosts, touch point.
The water speaks secrets of places iv’e never been, places I’ve only been through my ancestors eyes. These
touch points keeping me grounded, remind me of the love
And war thats worth fighting for.
“Abre los ojos, what do you see?”
I see me,
all of me,
heart, mind, body and soul.
 
 
 
 
"Underwater"

Natalie Contreras
(P’urépecha, Tepehuan, Coca)
 
 
 
The Discovery of Bliss

Joey Gonzales
(Chumash/Tataviam)


As the sun glowed on my face
My heart began to pace
I felt my own love and embrace
Love for myself in this case
The singing birds began to race
No other thing can replace
This feeling inside
As I close my eyes
I find my peace of mind
And although I still cry
Till my tears become dry
I inhale and exhale and sigh
Because I know this brings healing inside
I knew right than and there
That love was in the air
Love for myself
because no one else can compare
I gave myself a truth or dare
Truth , are you scared you’re wasting your youth?
Yes I answered
Dare , I dare you to recognize that you’re rare
I began to discover more about me and not care
Not care for judgement or validation
Because there is not other relation
That matters more than me...myself ...and I
 
 
 

Untitled

Chantal Jung
(Nunatsiavut/Labrador Inuk)

 
 
 
 
Bad Dogs

Kimberly Blaeser
(Anishinaabe)


for John Trudell

i.

what we learn about slaughter
is top 40 sappy & netflix hypothetical—

until you raise bad dog noise
against flags r, w, & blues

ii.

a mixedblood skin playing funk—
jazz blues rock ‘n tribal drums

[A.K.A. Graffiti Man]

bandanas & croon over indian america
rez made, we live his dance-back songs

[Myth slayers undermine their own realities.]

iv.

he stood for you blue Indians
AIMed activism & drew fire

America’s oldest—scorched earth
stories of torched crops, bodies, lives

v.

they murdered Geronimo’s family
turned him into a resistance fighter

[Colonel José María Carrasco attacked Geronimo's camp while the men were in town trading. . . . killed in Carrasco's attack were Geronimo's wife, children and mother.]

they burned Trudell’s family
turned him into a song poet of resistance

[a fire “of suspicious origin” burned down Trudell’s home on the Shoshone Palute reservation in Nevada, killing Trudell’s wife, Tina, their three children and Tina’s mother]

vi.

this American dream is a tale of vengeance
don’t they love a neverending gun story

[That’s the way this fire burns. . . Protect your spirit because you are in the place were spirits get eaten.]

vi.

Dear Casey Casum, does the FBI list count?
(17,000 pages & ominous background music)

[John Frances Trudell has been. . . actively involved in militant activities. . . He has good rhetorical delivery and is considered to be an agitator.]

Dear Netfix, when they burn all our heroes,
who will see in the celluloid mirror?

vii.

Blue Indians being pulled into melting pots.
 
 
 
 
"To Live & To Die"

Arrow the Savage
(Mexican, Navajo)

 
 
Her Name Was Rita

Jessica Mehta
(Aniyunwiya/Citizen of the Cherokee Nation)


Rita took pictures of herself.

Every time she passed that photo booth after work,
one picture for a dime and then the prices kept rising.
She’d close the curtain and the bulbs would pop.
 
 
 
 
On Vegan Frybread

Renata Yazzie
(Diné)


Across the ocean, in a small town,
Are two people, very brown,
The only Natives, for miles around,
There to play some twinkly sounds.

Yet hands that were meant to play the Raindrops,
Are hands in a kitchen now going flip-flop.
Soft pearls of dough into oil drop,
Some are circular, some are blobs.

Minutes prior we are standing in,
A Rewe grocery story, where, to our chagrin,
We realized that Blue Bird flour, there is nothing akin.
We ask for lard, and once again.

All they have is coconut oil.

We make it work.
It’s fry bread with a little quirk.
Maybe call it a piece of vegan artwork?
I guess that’s the perk.

Of growing up learning how to make do.

It is summer again; I’m in a cafe.
A new song begins, so I look at the display.
“I think you should have your tribal ID revoked”
A rush of emotions, the nostalgia evoked.

“No seriously,” he says, as I look on skeptically,
The yeast packets, are actually baking powder, that he gives me.
“Who. is gonna eat. vegan. fry bread.?”

The Germans, with their barbecue spread.
 
 
 

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